March – the hardest month I have lived. This was the month that my life completely turned upside down. Life came tumbling down faster than my mind could even start to process what was happening, and to this day, the week of March eleventh is all just a blur.
Days before I wrote :
Trust the Lord in trials. Don’t judge circumstances by what we see but by what He says. Trusting in God is believing in Him when you can’t see His hand. It’s so easy to trust when everything is smooth sailing, but when life flips upside down and the waters rage on you have to trust Him even more. He led Moses. He protected Daniel. He saved Shadrach, Meshach, and Abendego. He WILL do the same for me. Even when the path is dark and I can’t see what is in front of me, He is still there leading and guiding my every step.
I did not know how much I was going to need that paragraph in the coming days and months, but God had a plan. I wrote that during a time when the only concern in my life was finishing my math assignments before 1:00 and making it from class to practice within 45 minutes, and within a weekend everything changed.
Time went so fast but so slow all at the same time. A week of hurting physically and emotionally as we all braced ourselves, or tried to, for the passing of Grandma all while trying to figure out the plan for my knee and loving a little boy as much as we can not knowing that one day soon he would disappear from us. I honestly thought we would never heal as a family from that week, but we learned to take it day by day and slowly we healed.
In the past eight months, I have learned many lessons but one that was consistent with every trial was this :
Healing takes time.
Healing is not something you can rush. It is not something you can put on a timeline and say “Okay self, be healed by this day.” It is not something you can compare to the person next to you. It is fragile and precious. It is a time of getting to know yourself and learning to love yourself. It is a time of getting to know God and His love for you. It is so easy to look at life’s circumstances and hate them. It is so easy to be jealous of the girl on Instagram who seems to have it so much better than you. It is so easy to look at other’s lives and wonder, “Why did it have to be me?” And what I have learned is this, none of that speeds up the process it slows down the process.
In the arms of the Creator, we are held and nurtured. We have all that we need. We have everything we need in order to heal in one book, the Bible. How reassuring is it to know that someone loved you so much that He died so that you could be set free? How comforting is it to know that the God of all creation knows you every need, your every tear, and your every prayer before you even speak? How comforting is it to know that God knows and direct our lives and will NEVER forsake us?
He is present in your time of need.
God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.
Recovering from an ACL surgery is a very long and S L O W process, but eight months later I have officially checked off everything on my “Post-Surgery To-Do List”. During my run I couldn’t help but to be so overwhelmed with joy as my feet pounded against the pavement. I had longed for the day I would be able to run on that road again. As I ran all I thought was, “Thank you for healing. Thank you for patience. Thank you for comfort.”
A study on Job showed me that through all the struggles God never gives the devil enough rope to pull us from His presence. At a time when I was healing from many things and learning my body all over again, never once was I pulled away from His presence. Never once did He lose hope in me. Never once did He let go. My faith was tested but in Him I found peace in the journey – and that girl, is the secret to healing.
So, wherever you are in your journey of life I encourage you to not give up. Don’t let the things of the world make you feel like you are not healing fast enough or that you are not enough. Don’t let your circumstances rob you of your peace. Cling to Him knowing that He supplies a peace that none other can do. He knows your every need and He knows when the light at the tunnel will shine. Remember : He did not bring you this far to lose you.
By grace, hurt and healing can co-exist.
By grace, you will grow.
By grace, you will learn.
By grace, you will heal and your story will be used to bring honor and glory to Him.
Healing takes time darling. Have patience and cling to Him – it is a life long journey.
https://jesusandcoffee.blog/2019/03/24/a-new-season-awaits/ – Click here to read my post 8 months ago about my injury.